Mission Manitou Springs



	Testimonies [what people are saying] FAQ's [frequently asked questions] Pictures [see the action] Schedule [an example of what you will experience at M2] Register [view registration info including dates and cost] The Vision [spend a week, take a city!] The Experience [what you are in for] Pray The Revolution The House of Prayer Contact		Hi John, I will do my best to make this letter to you have some sense of flow or coherentness to it, but with my mind and heart still racing from our time at Revolution Church, I can only promise to do my best. First, I have to tell you how incredibly blessed I am by you, Amy, Skylar, Parker, and the family of Revolution Church. I have never felt so genuinely welcomed and warmly loved. I feel that I have now experienced how the body of Christ is truly supposed to operate. Being with your church family felt like coming to a family reunion. As you know, it is hard for me to feel that way and accept that kind of affection. I am not one to become so attached or fall so quickly and uncarefully in love, but I can honestly say that I am homesick for Manitou Springs and Revolution Church. It’s a feeling that I don’t really know how to cope with, but that I’m glad for it. Your church has allowed me to love in a way I don’t remember doing so before. You, your family, and your church are constantly on my heart. I can’t wait to be there with you all again. John, thank you so much for loving our ministry, but more, for loving me. Thank you for allowing God to speak through you and making the time and effort to invest in me. The tears in my eyes as I write this are a testimony to what God is doing in my heart. I didn’t used to be a crier, but it takes little more than just the thought of God’s love and goodness to get me going. I think I owe your church a shipment of Kleenex from when I was there! You shared with me that I am on your heart and you are praying for me. That means more to me than words can even begin to express. I struggle with feeling important enough to be on someone’s heart, but I’m getting there. I am amazing after all, as you told me! Please keep praying—something in me is breaking. I prayed a very dangerous prayer in the cave that night. I prayed for God to rock my world, and believe me, it’s rocked. I’ve never been so excited and scared in my life. I don’t want to be limited anymore. I don’t want to be worn out anymore. I want the intimacy with God that we talked about--the kind that people are drawn to and that books are written about. I have to admit my envy for those who were instantly delivered and changed. I am well aware of the difficulty of the process I am going through. For someone like me who is not used to feeling a lot of things, the emotion alone is overwhelming. However, I am determined to not let go of it. My heart is crazy for what awaits me on the other side of this journey.

			At the same time I am trying to let go of my need to understand everything before releasing to the Lord, I am also beginning to see some things clearly. Do you remember the night at my house before the Reality? retreat in November? You asked how everyone was feeling and the consensus was excitement- except for me, I was freaked out. I now understand that the spirit that limits me and makes me feel unloved or unworthy was the same one that made me so afraid of a movement of God. It didn’t want to be found out. Hidden so well that I didn’t even know about it, it was safe. Well, it’s found out. My eyes and my heart are not blind anymore. While it is going with some resistance, the enemy can consider his eviction notice official. I will not be lied to any longer. Now that I have an understanding of my incredible need for love, I can seek it from God, who I know wants more than anything for me to have it. I feel like in my limitation, I had just enough of God’s love to keep me from seeking the incredible, personal, passionate, crazy love relationship that God offers with himself. “Just enough” will not do. I want to stay up all night just to think about him and talk with him. I want to make little hearts on my paper during meetings because I can’t get him off of my mind. I am so excited for what is coming in my life. While I feel like I am on this crazy, hard, exciting journey, I was also blessed to receive awesome words of encouragement. Jeremy spoke over me that God would use me to bring clarity to other people’s situations. That seems like a funny gift for someone who is coming out of my own confusion, but is so encouraging to me because I have always had a heart for counseling. He also just spoke a gift of peace over me, that others would feel peace in my company. What a fun, great gift. No pressure, just be near people and bring them peace. I like it. Anyway, that’s my story or testimony. Feel free to share any of it that you like. You said while you were praying for me that God was reading my mail, but I have a pretty good idea he let you see it too, so I know you know my heart. Switching gears, I am so exciting about the vision that God is placing about M2 being an ongoing thing. You have to make one promise though; you can’t love them as much as you did us. We’re first and special! Just teasing! Please let me know if there is anything that I can do to serve to facilitate this awesome vision. In all seriousness, this is not a lighthearted offer to help. I am willing to do whatever you need. Do not hesitate to ask. Actually, I’m dying to do something for you guys, so if there’s anyway that I can serve you, I want to know about it. Thanks again for your service and blessing to our ministry, but mostly to me. My life is different because of you. Love in Christ, Beth Mills More...